09-18-2019, 12:54 PM
Greetings everyone,
I am Josef from France, 24 years old, and I am currently in need of religious guidance.
I think a longer introduction is needed, however I'll do a tl;dr at the end, because my life isn't the most interesting thing in the world.
I was in a dire situation most of my young life, until the age of, say, 20. It basically included health problems, family health problems, ultimately death of a parent, and financial troubles. Let's say it wasn't a good party day everyday. I was atheist back then, and a conviced one. I didn't think I would believe in god even if I lived for a thousand years.
The passing of my mother (which I discovered her religious side the day after her death, and offered her a religious burial even if I was atheist) changed that, or at least shined a spark. My atheism began to be more tolerant over the years, and I opened enough to accept the presence of a god (the formulation is chosen). It's a bit funny, but my view to religion became better and better as my life improved. Today, I am healthy, I can't complain of my life on any part, and life is good.
But six months ago, I began to actually believe. In which god or religion, I couldn't tell. As I said to my longtime girlfriend, "it's like the will to pee". You don't know how it came, but it sure did.
Anyway, I'm basically looking for a religion for some months after accepting my growing faith. However, even if I was raised in a catholic environment, I do not believe in the messianic existence of Jesus. Therefore, bad luck for christianity.
The Jewish checks a lot of boxes for what I'm looking for, but I guess that'd better be discussed in a proper subject.
TL;DR : I was a young angry atheist who clenched first at god(s). I became agnostic when life became better, but my faith is growing and I believe Judaism may be a way for me to grow religiously.
Thank you for reading,
Josef
I am Josef from France, 24 years old, and I am currently in need of religious guidance.
I think a longer introduction is needed, however I'll do a tl;dr at the end, because my life isn't the most interesting thing in the world.
I was in a dire situation most of my young life, until the age of, say, 20. It basically included health problems, family health problems, ultimately death of a parent, and financial troubles. Let's say it wasn't a good party day everyday. I was atheist back then, and a conviced one. I didn't think I would believe in god even if I lived for a thousand years.
The passing of my mother (which I discovered her religious side the day after her death, and offered her a religious burial even if I was atheist) changed that, or at least shined a spark. My atheism began to be more tolerant over the years, and I opened enough to accept the presence of a god (the formulation is chosen). It's a bit funny, but my view to religion became better and better as my life improved. Today, I am healthy, I can't complain of my life on any part, and life is good.
But six months ago, I began to actually believe. In which god or religion, I couldn't tell. As I said to my longtime girlfriend, "it's like the will to pee". You don't know how it came, but it sure did.
Anyway, I'm basically looking for a religion for some months after accepting my growing faith. However, even if I was raised in a catholic environment, I do not believe in the messianic existence of Jesus. Therefore, bad luck for christianity.
The Jewish checks a lot of boxes for what I'm looking for, but I guess that'd better be discussed in a proper subject.
TL;DR : I was a young angry atheist who clenched first at god(s). I became agnostic when life became better, but my faith is growing and I believe Judaism may be a way for me to grow religiously.
Thank you for reading,
Josef