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[AGCG]

Hello AGCG and welcome to the forum.

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Congrats on your conversion process!

What may I ask helped you make the decision to start?

I'm guessing you are working with a Rabbi or synagogue?

It should be a long process but one that is meaningful.

You really aren't joining a religion, you are joining a people.

There may be times when you feel discouraged or rejected but keep going forward if you are 100% sure this is right for you.

Thank you. 

Trying not to rant too much: I always had so many doubts on Christianism in general, but, being on a country that is strongly biased through catholicism and mainly protestanism, I just rolled that as lack of faith and moved on. My fiancee, on the other hand, had a devoted jewish great grandmother, but, when her mother converted to a protestant sect here, she shut down everything related to her heritage (according to her, her great grandmother always said she ran from the Palestine in the early 30s and settled here in Brazil). She always felt connected, but also shutted that down due to psychological pressure. Her mother passed, we met, engaged and had a daughter. She opened to me close to two months ago, and we began to make some basic readings. I never felt so connected to anything like I am. Every doubt that I had previously, things I felt inconsistent, unlike the nature I felt was close to God, it was all, like, explained. 

I waited, made some research, because I did not wanted to begin this process if I did not felt true about this. Now I know I do. I obviously know I do not know nothing yet, but I do feel ready to learn, and to attach it to my present and future. 

Due to Covid, I could not go physically to a synagogue yet. I tried to reach for the local Chabad, but I am still waiting for a reply. That is why I am looking for a guide of sorts, to guide me through some study beyond the geberal "rules" and the common topics (my non Hebrew name, circumcision, cover the hair in the case of my fiancee. Daily things, in general) until I have some reply, or I can go meet a Rabbi personally.