A question about Jewish Priests

[Stewart Edwards]

You're very welcome Stewart!

The way I see things, this is a lifelong journey for all of us, no matter who we are or where we are from. Every little bit of good that we do (and big bits too!) helps to make the world a better place.

And we do not even know how it will impact future generations.

So don't stop, keep driving forward and plod on! The is no one better than you because every individual is unique and has something to offer in a different way.

Oh, and one last thing - You didn't fail!!

Thank you again, Searchinmyroots, you probably have no idea how much your words have helped to comprehend, in practical terms how I could ‘grasp my spiritual authority’ as this Priest has been encouraging me to do. Funny how things can work tangentially.

But the fact remains, I doubt in myself that I am (in essence responsible enough) to ensure that, given the implications of ‘driving forwards further’, I don’t myself get diverted again by darkness (ego (my main concern), money addiction, desire for power, fear of losing it, etc). 

This is a bit like when I was eagerly ready to take that final step in life, but decided to place my trust in God and accept his freewill request to consider returning here, even though I desperately wanted to take that final step.

Except this time, I know that whichever route I follow has Gods blessing. 

My preferred option of simply reporting back on death on human evolution, or grasping this opportunity (that because of this forum I now feel is likely more than one Priests perspective), and actively ‘grasping that spiritual authority’ and trying to achieve more human evolution during my lifetime. 

Bearing in mind that I cannot see how I could achieve any more without considerable real world resources (where I have seen a plan for years now, using my wide ranging education and qualifications to work above, but in, the system, to effectively inspire evolution. But that requires working with darkness. Which brings me back to whether I am responsible enough nowadays not to fall again into darkness myself. Even if there was a chance that those resources were available to me (extremely unlikely in any realistic way, but a fun metaphysical diversion).

Maybe it is just the effects of Dexamethasone (a cancer steroid that can make you mind do funny things), or maybe I am suffering from an undiagnosed mental illness. But I am sure you can appreciate just how unlikely it is for someone to be in this sort of position.

I am babbling again Searchinmyroots. Sorry. I need to get back to critically reflecting. I just wanted you to know just how helpful, powerful, useful, your words have been. Thank you again.