Greetings! I come in peace as an Unbeliever/Seeker

[irmadlad]

Have you prayed and asked God to reveal Himself to you?

I have been on this planet some 25,900 +/- days. I would say that over 50% of them have heard me screaming into the void, at God or whatever is out there, to reveal themself to me. The void does not answer. 

I am not an atheist. However, I am honest enough to say 'I don't know'. It is quite obvious to me that something happened. Science calls it 'The Big Bang'. Religion calls it God and creation, by many names. For all I know, 'The Big Bang' could have been God saying 'Let there be light'. I don't know, however, I fully admit it is quite obvious something occurred, and here we are. 

I have been told that God will reveal Himself through His word. I have probably read the KJV Bible more times than most church goers. This is not me being a braggart. This is me trying to find some morsel of understanding and/or truth, and to be quite frank, it does not make logical sense to me. One of the first thing I am met with when I ask Christians these things is 'The ways of God are foolishness to man'. I am not bothering everyone here with long paragraphs of questions because I think it's foolishness. If I thought it were foolishness, I wouldn't give it a second thought, and I'd be on my way. 

Even as a wee lad, I have had this insatiable lust to know all I could know about this universe around me. It cannot be denied that it works with precision, logic, and order. Each piece interlocking and dependent of the other. I would expect that if a God created this universe, that He must be a God of logic, reason, and order. Yet I find nothing that indicates logic, reason, and order.